1. |
sorry words
00:37
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*cringe @ how i fucking sing this song*
i'm sorry that i can't put this to words
i'm sorry that i can't do this on my own
i'm worthless (x2)
i'm sorry
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2. |
maybe someday
01:19
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standing in an open space
i tell myself that i mean something
and lying down on the open floor
i have nothing left to tell myself anymore
and i know that i am not the one
and i know that you've known it all along
and i am not the one of your dreams
but i am trying my best to be that something
and i know that one day maybe i could do this
i think that one day i could do this
but i know that it won't be for a long time
because i am not perfect
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3. |
don't look
01:21
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take a look at what i've become
i don't want this to end
i wish i could stay
but it's already the end of the day
why did you leave without me? (x3)
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4. |
not as much
01:11
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i don't get to see you anymore
or at least not as often as i'd like
and i know that you miss me
but i know it's not as much as i miss you
and i know all this business of conflicts of interest is bullshit
we just have to find time
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5. |
tears over beers
03:05
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tears over beers cover
song by modern baseball
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6. |
downlooker
01:28
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i climbed the tallest tree i could find
i wanted to look around
i looked out at what i saw
and after all this height i realized
that i was still looking down
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7. |
sad trash
00:16
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i spend my days like sad trash looking back at me
the bin's full; come empty me
tell me who i'm supposed to be; i'll be it
because i've gotten good at doing what i'm told
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8. |
car mirrors
01:07
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here i am looking in my rearview mirror
hoping i don't see eyes looking back at me
cause i just saw a scary movie about mirrors
and i'm hoping that my car isn't haunted
but according to a credible source
cars are too small to be haunted
but then how can you explain
how my heart is haunted by you
i'm not saying that's necessarily a bad thing
no
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9. |
i'm real
03:00
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i'm real cover
song by told slant
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10. |
you're the place
03:05
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i am looking for a place away from material things
but i've been looking in all the wrong ways
because for the most part i've been looking down
but i'm trying my best to look back up now
and i'm looking for myself now or just a place to fit in
i just wanna fit in (x5)
and i'm still looking for that place to call home
but i'm having trouble, and i wish that i could stay with you
because the closest place to home is that place in your arms
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11. |
alaska
00:36
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alaska cover
song by the most beautiful images
so - how was alaska?
i'm gonna regret this later, but god knows i love wasting my time
how's that cd?
you can keep it; i don't want it back; i wanna kick you out
i thought about you the other day
i saw a woman scolding her child at dorney park
no disrespect, but that's all we were: a woman and a boy
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12. |
surrounded
00:52
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i am surrounded by people i don't know
and i belong to the places that i don't go
and i am hoping that one day i will find you
but for now i've been clinging to the idea
that you aren't real - you are real
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13. |
cancer
01:01
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i want cancer for christmas cover
song by johnny hobo and the freight trains
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14. |
maybe not
00:36
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i know that i can't stand myself anymore
but i do what i can to make it not so bad
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15. |
two exit
00:28
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take me with you; i don't wanna stay
i'm not happy anyway
i just wanna run away with you
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16. |
every song i ever wrote
02:21
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i'm looking into your eyes, but i can't see you
but i guess it's alright because i'm really looking in the mirror
and well, i can't see myself because i don't know who i am
and i don't know anymore; i don't know (x2)
that's how all my songs go: i don't know (x3)
there i did it again; i don't know (x2)
i don't know (x7)
and i hate it, and i hate myself
and the more i sing these songs the more i hate myself
because all my songs go, "well, i hate myself" (x2)
fuck that; move on (x2)
all my songs sound the same
and i don't know what to do
because i don't really know how to play guitar
and i don't know real chords
i just strum things that sound like them
and all my songs go, "well, i hate myself"
and all my songs go, "well, i'm playing g and c and e
and sometimes f"
and i think that i should give up writing songs or something
because i'm not very good at it
and i started jesusdad and suck. - and well, they suck
because - you know, i'm in 'em
and this song should probably come to an end real soon
so i'll end it
well, i hate myself (x3)
well, i hate myself
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17. |
cold
04:43
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the air feels cold
colder now than when i was with you
and the nights feel dark
darker now than when there was light
oh and i've thought about giving up hope and everything
i don't know
don't forget me
just forget me
move on; go, go, go
because i am a waste of life
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18. |
i'm over it
00:25
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when i look into your eyes i see a lot of things
like you and me, but i guess i'll have to be more realistic
because i'm "just another boy", and you're "not just any girl"
and i'm a "piece of shit", but you don't deserve better than me
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19. |
59 days straight
01:57
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there's good and bad days
oh, who am i kidding?
it's always a bad day
and it's been a bad day for 59 days straight
and it's one in the morning, but i'm still up
because when i close my eyes all i see is you
and i fucking hate you; you really fucked me up
now it's two in the morning
and i ask should i go to sleep or should i kill myself?
because there's no point in waking up
i'll give it a week to make up my mind
but i know in seven days time
i will be no more closer to smiling
there's good and bad days
oh, why even bother?
it's been a fucking bad day
now it's three in the morning
but i can't sleep cause i've been thinking about ways to die
now it's four in the morning
and i'm stuck about thinking of ways i could kill him
then kill myself; it's really fucked up; i know i'm fucked up
now it's five in the morning, and i've made up my mind
i'll write a song and hope this all blows over
but i know in seven days time
i will be no more closer to smiling
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20. |
sad trash (pt.2)
02:07
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tell me what you want from me
i hate myself; tell me who i should be
i'm taking suggestions and guidance to help me out
i am no better than trash on the street
kick me to the curb; walk along; fade away from me
tell me what i want to hear
even though i know it's too much to ask
i know you're not capable of saying it or really meaning it
i'll forgive you, but first i have to forgive myself
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21. |
untitled
05:28
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aka cold (pt.2)
i hate my eyes; i hate my nose
i hate my voice; i hate my bones
i hate my mouth; i hate my teeth
i hate my hands; i hate me
i hate my thoughts; the way i act
the words that i say; things that i lack
what do you want from me?
i hate myself
i wanna die
i don't wanna die
i wanna die
i think about dying all the time
i wanna die
i don't wanna die
i wanna die
all i am is a question of suicide
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22. |
001
01:55
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hey, helen, how are you?
hey, helen, what's your name?
i see you outside sometimes smoking cigarettes
i wish you'd come over; i wish i'd see you more often
hey, helen, can i bum a cigarette?
i like your nose piercing; did i tell you that yet?
you've got beautiful eyes, though i'm too scared to look at them
and there's chips in your nail polish
no, you're not perfect, but you're still smiling
hey, helen, how are you?
hey, helen, what's your name?
hey, helen, how are you?
hey, helen, won't you please tell me your name?
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23. |
002
01:59
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remember the night when we were alone?
you squeezed my hand so hard you felt my bones
and you drug me into the basement
we had a few beers; we shed a few tears
we watched some movies, and i played with your hair -
so long and blonde - though it's a different length
and a different color now
we fell asleep - you next to me
i put my arm around you just to be closer
but when we woke up we both knew that it was over
i waited a week for you to call me
you finally did, and you said you're sorry
and we made up with a hug and a kiss
and a few things i'm sure you don't miss
and you took me up to your bedroom - just to talk
well, what is it - just say it, but you said,
"it's something i have to show you"
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24. |
003
01:48
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we danced in your bedroom to a slow song
we swayed back and forth with each other
you had your fourth glass of wine
and i had already finish mine
you spilled some on my shirt, but i didn't mind
you wrapped your hands around my neck
and mine pulled you close around your waist
you didn't have pants on
but that was alright because i didn't either
you rested your head on my chest, and i kissed the top of it
no, we shouldn't be doing this
we shouldn't be doing this
we shouldn't be doing this - again
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25. |
004
02:06
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stopped for gas; you got out and paid
i got out too, but i started walking away
you didn't stop me; you didn't notice me leaving
and when i looked back at the frames of your glasses
you were looking down
are you as nervous as i am?
because you have a boyfriend - and i have a girlfriend
i'll never know; we stayed quiet on the ride home
and when we said goodbye, oh, i wished you didn't let go
goodbye for now -
i hope you're not late getting back to your house
there's something about you; there's nothing about me
oh, i wish i'd hear from you in the morning
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26. |
005
02:45
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why are you crying?
i can tell you're trying to make it look like you're not
you wipe the tears like you're just fixing your makeup
why are you crying?
you've got no reason to be
you've got a pretty black dress on
and a pretty black pair of boots
well, i'm always wearing black
i would love it if you would dress up in me too
you're still crying; i wish i knew what to say
say something; say something already
oh, it doesn't matter anyway
i watched as you got up to leave
i didn't stop you; it's a memory that's haunting me
hey, helen, how are you?
hey, helen, what's your name?
hey, helen, how are you?
hey, helen, will things ever be the same?
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27. |
1n1
02:02
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i should get up and get out of bed, but i don't have a reason
i should get dressed and get ready to drive to school
i should get up and get out of bed so i won't be late
but then i ask myself - what's the reason?
i should try my hardest at everything i do
i should get good grades and do well in school
but sometimes i just feel like giving up
and then i ask myself - what's the point?
i've been trying my best to try my best (x2)
i've been trying my best not to steal lines from other songs
but so far i've been doing bad at it
i'm trying my best, mom
i'm trying my best
i tried my best
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28. |
tw2
01:20
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i was on my phone, and then she was like,
"why don't you like me?", and i was like, "um, i don't know",
and she was like, "well, obviously, you have a problem with me"
and then, um, i was like, "yeah... i don't know"
and then we were in the car and she was like, "no!"
---
supermarket parking lots go hand in hand with bad days
just like broken mirrors go with haunted houses
and i go together with success
just like something that doesn't exist
because 9/10ths of my life has been spent giving up
because 90% of the time i just don't give a fuck
but i'd be lying if i said that was a good thing
sit down; shut up; give in; give up
---
i was like, "carol, i'll drop you as a friend so fast..."
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29. |
thr33
01:34
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knock me down; pin me to the ground
i don't know how much more i can take
you've had a lot to go through
and i keep adding to the list of things
we won't do; we'll never do
knock me down; pin me to the floor
i don't know you anymore
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30. |
f44r
00:29
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you know what it is - yeah!
and i don't even gotta say it again
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take me with you; i don't wanna stay
i'm not happy anyway
i just wanna run away with you
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31. |
f5v5
02:07
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she - also, like, when i'm quiet -
because, like, i don't wanna talk -
because i don't usually talk with my parents -
she's like, "it's your duty to continue communication in the car;
it's your duty to initiate conversation"
and she thinks that just because i don't talk to her
that i don't talk to any adults, and, like - i don't know how to talk to people - even though i'm pretty sure i know how to talk to people - just not cute girls
---
eating reheated microwave diner food
on your kitchen floor again
you sat indian-style with a pile of napkins
to clean up the mess that we made
i think i'm falling for you and i hope you feel the same
i think you do cause when we look at each other we look
but we're both a little out of frame
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i'm so depressed
maybe if i took two more aspirin it would help
except, that would make - 2, 4, 6 aspirin -
i'm turning into an aspirin junkie
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32. |
s6x
00:57
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i'm ugly
you're ugly, and what?
square?
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wearing hats and paper jackets, looking good for our parents
wearing frowns and looking down, feeling empty
we take off our clothes to stop feeling so ugly
why do you keep looking; why do you keep looking at me
i'm so fucking ugly - inside and out
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33. |
s7v7n
01:55
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i've been trying to sleep away the last few weeks
because i have been having some bad days
and i am losing my footing because you're so good looking
and i just keep struggling trying to figure out a way to say hi
and i wish that i was an orange soda
and i wish that i would've known ya so much sooner than i did
and i wish i had an idea of what was going on with my life
and it's not what you do
and it's not all those things you're thinking
and it's not what you say to me
no, it's not you, my dear
no, it's not you
it's not you
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oh for god's sake, allen, don't take it personal
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it's who you fear
who do you fear
no, it's not you
it's who you fear
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oh, i won't take it personal
i'll just kill myself - that's all!
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34. |
88ght
01:58
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i picked my head up, looked at the sky and i smiled
cause it's funny how much we can change
you got some new piercings and some drawings on your legs
while i stayed the same
now you got some new clothes to change up your wardrobe
cause you're always changing things
you do all these things to make you look how you feel
but is it really you or do you just wanna be in control for once?
do you just wanna be in control for once?
do you just wanna be in control?
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35. |
n9n9
00:57
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i'm trying my best, mom
i'm trying my best
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